Lost In A Cloudy Day
As I woke up this morning getting ready to go to work, I suddenly felt as if a huge grey cloud moved over my head. And as I drove out of my condo area, I really felt as if I’m heading towards a place where there’s no purpose, no joy & no life.
For the past 2 weeks, things at work are just disappointing and discouraging. Things happening around the office seems to suck dry all the joy, passion & excitement that I used to have for my job. It’s not that I’m pressured & stressed but sitting here in the office just makes me unhappy and discouraged. Most of the people seems to have put on a work mask and walk around the office either passionless or almost heartless.
Work used to be exciting and motivating. Every day used to be a new challenge to me but now I feel like I’m doing things without purpose. I get irritated and agitated easily. That’s not how I want to feel and it’s very depressing.
Some people say, "Look for a better job else where lah..". For me, I’ve been through numerous job changes and after being here for 5 years, I sort of got tired about the whole looking for a new job process. Just the thought of it makes me tired. The day I leave the company will be the day my hubby is ready to employ me into his company.
I just can’t wait to get home after work every day coz that’s when the grey cloud will sort of disappear temporarily. It’s sucking the life out of me!
