Anything & Everything Under The Sun

It’s been quite some time since I last posted anything here. Just too busy with my wedding preparations. My wedding’s over, my honeymoon’s over and now I’m beginning my life as Mrs Ken Lee. Something’s changed inside of me but I’m not sure what and whether I’m ready to face what’s ahead of me now.

The last I remembered, I was still excitedly planning and preparing for 4 November, my wedding day. When the big day came, I was just overwhelmed with emotions… nervous, happy, excited, thankful, grateful all at the same time. Everything happened so fast that when I sit down and think to myself now, I just felt as if I did not have enough time to actually enjoy the moment.

I did not really look and admire the wedding car, did not shake enough hands, did not take enough photographs with most of my guests, did not say thank you enough to my sisters, cousins, friends for helping me out. There’s just not enough time to slow down and enjoy the moment.

The greatest thing in the whole event was the video presentation prepared specially by my brother, David, Julienne and Nigel. It was one of a kind and never seen or done before in any other wedding. I’m proud to say that I may be the first to have such video. Just the playbacks of the video presentation in my mind floods me with all kinds of emotions especially thankfulness and gratefulness. You have no idea the time and effort spent by 3 of them in producing that video.

I sometimes just sit in silence, deep in my own thoughts not wanting to accept the fact that a year preparation is now over just like that. I wish time could stand still at that moment… at least enough for me to enjoy every moment of my wedding day.

Tomorrow I’ll be going back to work as it was before but minus the thoughts of the wedding preparation. So what’s next? Is it like what most people expect of Ken and myself… producing little Kens and Lings? My feelings are somehow paused at 4 November. When can I be normal again? Or is it normal to feel this way?

The colour blue… that’s the colour Ken & I chose to be our wedding theme colour. It’s a colour we both like very much and I would like to relate most of my wedding stuffs to the colour blue.

At first I wanted to have blue with silver writing invitation cards but because my mom in-law prefered not to, just to respect her request, I decided to change my invitation card to cream gold. Then the evening gown that I chose from the Red Bliss is also blue. Ken said I look really good in it. I think there should be no objection to this.

Since I can’t get Red Bliss to get me blue flowers for my bridal bouquet, I went to As You Like It Flowers in Sri Hartamas the recent Saturday to special order the bridal bouquet, groom and best man’s corsage and the bridesmaid wrislets. My bridal bouquet will consists of white roses with baby blue ribbons. The corsages and wrislets will be made accordingly to match my bridal bouquet. Since I won’t be needing the bridal bouquet provided by Red Bliss, they’ve actually exchanged the bouquet to 16 corsages (4 VIP corsages and 12 normal corsages) instead. Now I will have corsages for our immediate family members and friends helping us that day.

Next is the netting for the bridal car. Since blue is not one of the given choices, Ken & I went to Petaling Street to buy our very own blue netting. I’ve sent the blue netting I bought to Red Bliss today for their safe keeping. Joey (the person-in-charge of my file) asked me whether I’m sure that’s the colour I wanna use. I asked her why and she told me that it’s not a very commonly used colour. Weird…

I was told by a few colleagues that people usually relate the colour blue & white to the dead but that’s not what Ken and I thinks. We both love the colour blue and we’re not gonna let some superstition limit our decision making. This is a once in a lifetime event and we think we should actually make decisions that makes us happy rather than having to regret later on.

I’m still thinking of having the banquet hall decorated with metallic blue helium balloons but I still can’t find a very good supplier. I still have things like flower girls’ dresses, flower girls’ basket, invitation cards and a few other wedding stuffs to  think about and it’s getting me quite nervous coz I seem to have so much to do in so little time. I only have 2 more months to go and it’s not really very far away. These days, time seems to go by ever so quickly.

It’s getting late now and I haven’t been getting enough sleep for the past 3 weeks due to roadshow & wedding preparations. I think I’ll just sign off now and go to bed.

Good night…

I just came back to work after a few days outstation with my colleague doing training for all Senheng outlets located down South. At this very moment I’m sitting here in the conference room attending a product training with all my other sales department colleagues.

The fun part are the short quizzes. We are all trying to get our points as high as possible. My team is at second place at the moment and there are 2 other teams having same points sitting at first place now. I seem to enjoy this session at the moment coz it’s without the presence of the Death Eaters. Now we’re all going into the showroom to view some of the coming soon products. So hold on a second and I’ll be back to continue…

I’m BACK! We’re gonna have our quiz on hobs soon.

Let me update you about happenings lately. Being outstation is very tiring coz all we did was putting up POSMs and training the floor staffs about our products. Most of the training was done by my colleague and I just chipped in a bit here and there. It’s more tiring for her coz she had to drive around and talk to the staffs most of the time. We didn’t quite have the time to look for good food to eat coz there’s just not enough time. We ended up eating very ordinary stuffs… food you could get easily around KL.

For me it’s tiring coz I have been working for the past 2 weekends and also this coming weekend. That’s because of the trade fairs and roadshows that we’ve been participating. It becomes frustrating when one of the Death Eater began nagging. And the reason for why he nags does not seems to make sense. I just wished he was a radio that I could just put on mute! Thank God I have other colleagues who are supportive and comforting.

I just finished my last Harry Potter book last Saturday and I give it 2 thumbs up! I’ll have to pass the book to my youngest sister next coz she’s also another Harry Potter fan.

Now back to what’s happening now… The trainer is still talking about hobs and now making comparisons between ours vs competitors. I think he’s gonna finish anytime now and pass us the quiz. I’ll just sign off for now till have time to update my blog or at least something interesting to talk about.

I know, I know, there’s nothing much in my blog that actually captures your interest to read on. But at least I don’t need to bottle up things inside me. So… chiao for now.

I woke up this morning thinking to myself that I’m not gonna let things/people suck the joy of work in my life and continue doing my best as how I was 5 years ago when I first joined the company. But as I entered the 2nd hour of work today, it happened! If you are a Harry Potter fan, you’ll understand what happens when a Dementor approaches a person who does not know how to summon a Patronus.

This person I think is what I would consider a Dementor… sucks all the happiness and hope out of a person and leave nothing but remorse. I sit here and let my mind wander back 5 years when I first came here. My boss was great (she’s still great even when she’s now not my boss), my fellow colleagues were find and they’re quite a joy most of the time. I see many faces come and go but nothing much has changed till recently.

At first it was just a question mark hovering over this person. But as it moves on, it looks as if the question mark now became a smiley face that now changes to a Dementor from time to time. Just when I tried to smile back with open arms of welcome, that is when I receive a hard slap on my face. I’ve never felt so resentful and I really do hate having this feeling.

At times I felt like approaching this person and let this person know how torturing it is to be in this current situation but from what I see, I don’t think it will help nor make things any better. All I can do most of the time is spill out to my husband or to my 3 sisters at work. Though I know they can’t help me to summon a Patronus and keep the Dementor away but at least it helped to make my burden felt a bit lighter.

Now most of the time, I think of nothing but leaving and maybe I don’t to suffer like that anymore. Maybe they do intend to drive me towards that direction. Well, if that’s true, I would prefer they walk up straight to me and tell it to my face. Then maybe I don’t have to try so hard to defend myself and my position.

My wedding day is approaching and planning for it has already given me stress that I’m happy with and that’s what I’m looking forward to. It’s only 3 months away and I’m still preparing my wedding card invitation, looking out for bridesmaid and flower girl dresses, thinking of whether or not to custom make a suit for Ken and etc..

What happens at work after the weeding? I really don’t know…

One day a girl asked:
Why do you like me?
Why do you love me?

HE answered:
I can’t tell the reason.. but i really like you..

SHE: You can’t even tell me the reason.. How can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

HE: I really don’t know the reason, but i can prove that i love you.

SHE: Proof? no! i want you to tell me the reason. My friend’s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!

HE: ok..ok!! ermmss..
because you are beautiful,
because your voice is sweet,
because you are caring,
because you are loving,
because you are thoughtful,
because of your smile,
because of your every movement.

The gal felt very satisfied with his answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the girl met with an accident and was in a comma. HE then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you…
Now can you talk? No! Therefore i cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that i like you..
Now that you cannot show them, therefore i cannot love you.

Because of your smile,
because of your every movements that i love you..
Now can you smile? Now can you move?
No, therefore i cannot love you…

If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Do love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, i still love you…
and love doesn’t need a reason…

"Sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be touched, but can be felt in the heart"

Love doesn’t need a reason… it’s something you can feel burning inside your heart and waiting to be explode of love…

Please.. never ever ask someone why do they love u.. love is nature and without love the world is nothing but a piece of crap. So everyone love the world and also love your loved ones…

The name is good, the brand is big
But the work I do is that of a pig
The work or the brand; what is my way?
I don’t know if I should stay. 

To work, they have set their own way
Nobody will care to hear what I say
My will be NULL, they wont change their way
I don’t know if I should stay.

The project is in a critical stage
But to do good work, this is the age
This dilemma is killing me day by day
I don’t know if I should stay. 

The money is good, the place is great
But the development is at a very small rate
Should I go for the work, or wait for pay
I don’t know if I should stay!

The managers don’t know what they talk
The team doesn’t know where they walk
That’s a bad situation, what say?
I don’t know if I should stay. 

I can go to any other place
But what if I get the same disgrace
I can’t keep switching day by day
I don’t know if I should stay.

The -ves are more, the +ves are less
Then why have this unnecessary mess
No more will I walk their way,
It’s all done, I won’t stay.

Thanks & Regards
Employee

Maybe I could use this someday…

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry. He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked,

"How much do I owe you?"

"You don’t owe me anything," she replied "Mother has taught us never to accept payment for a kindness." He said… "Then I thank you from my heart."

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt; stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Years later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room. Dressed in his doctor’s gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won. Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally, she looked, and something caught ; her attention on the side as She read these words…..

"Paid in full with one glass of milk." (Signed) Dr. Howard Kelly.

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: "Thank You, GOD, that Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands."

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she’s blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.

He’s always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."

Food For Thought : What’s the use of eyes that can see when we’re blind in the heart.

As I woke up this morning getting ready to go to work, I suddenly felt as if a huge grey cloud moved over my head. And as I drove out of my condo area, I really felt as if I’m heading towards a place where there’s no purpose, no joy & no life.

For the past 2 weeks, things at work are just disappointing and discouraging. Things happening around the office seems to suck dry all the joy, passion & excitement that I used to have for my job. It’s not that I’m pressured & stressed but sitting here in the office just makes me unhappy and discouraged. Most of the people seems to have put on a work mask and walk around the office either passionless or almost heartless.

Work used to be exciting and motivating. Every day used to be a new challenge to me but now I feel like I’m doing things without purpose. I get irritated and agitated easily. That’s not how I want to feel and it’s very depressing.

Some people say, "Look for a better job else where lah..". For me, I’ve been through numerous job changes and after being here for 5 years, I sort of got tired about the whole looking for a new job process. Just the thought of it makes me tired. The day I leave the company will be the day my hubby is ready to employ me into his company.

I just can’t wait to get home after work every day coz that’s when the grey cloud will sort of disappear temporarily. It’s sucking the life out of me!

I can’t imagine a world without friends… I would have gone crazy if my friends weren’t there to help Ken and myself with our new home. Our new home is in Puchong and it’s about 85% completed (renovation done, most furnitures in, only a few more bits and pieces to go).

For the past few Saturdays & Sundays, we’ve been busy with overlooking the renovation works, buying tiles, sourcing for fixtures for the home, moving items from Kelana Jaya to the new home, cleaning, installing fixtures & fittings and most dangerous of all installing the air conditioners. Ken & myself definitely did not do any of those by ourselves but we got A LOT of help from our friends, Nigel, Felix, David, Small Pang & Chris.

Two of our air conditioners (the one in the living room & the one in the master bedroom) actually came in the package which also includes installation but the compressors were suppose to be installed WITHIN the wet kitchen area and we didn’t want that. So we asked the appointed installer to install them outside, against the wall. He made a HUGE mistake when he tried to hard with the pricing. He first quoted about RM250 and it increased gradually over a few days to about OVER 1K!! So Ken decided that he’s gonna install them himself with the help of his fellow technician, Small Pang (that’s what we call him).

To cut the story short, Ken actually had to climb out and stand on one of the wall mounted brackets to secure the last bracket which was a bit out of reach. And that actually scared the living daylights out of me when I saw him outside, with a safety belt secured around his waist and 3 fellows (Nigel, David & Small Pang) holding on to the rope attached to that belt… and that’s because we’re on the 8th floor!!!

These friends of ours actually helped us installing most of the fixtures & fittings in our home, taking the rubbish down to the ground floor for disposal, carrying and transporting stuffs from different locations to our home & many more. Moving in to a new home is not really that easy. It would have actually taken us a few more Saturdays & Sundays to get those things done. I actually mopped the whole house 4 TIMES!!

Well, to Nigel, Felix, David, Small Pang & Chris, thank you SOOOOO MUCH for your help & contribution. The whole process would not be that smooth without you guys. Not forgetting our fellow sponsors, my mom & dad, my sisters (Yvonne, Adelene & Ruth), my grandma, aunt Lisa, uncle David, aunt Daphne, my cousin Esther, Ken’s mom, Ken’s sisters (Lilian & Evelyn) for furnitures, big & small appliances as well as some fittings to the home.

I’ll publish some photos of our new home when it’s done.